fly away from here

gotta find a way

i can't wait another day

ain't nothin' gonna change if we stay around here

gotta do what it takes cuz it's all in our hands

we all make mistakes but it's never too late to start again

take another breath and say another prayer

and fly away from here

anywhere.. i don't care

we just fly away from here

our hopes and dreams are out there somewhere

won't let time pass us by

we just fly...

if this life gets any harder now

it ain't no never mind

you got me by your side

and any time you want

we can catch a train and find a better place

cuz' we won't let nothin' or no one keep gettin' us down

maybe you and I can pack our bags and hit the sky

oh i wish..

i like...

I just don't know where to begin
i like the way you, look at me with those beautiful eyes,
I like the way you, act all surprised,
I like the way you, sing along,
I like the way you, always get it wrong,
I like the way you, clap your hands,
I like the way you, love to dance,
I like the way you, put your hands up in the air,
I like the way you, shake your hair,
I like the way you, like to touch,
I like the way you, stare so much,
But most of all...yeah most of all....
i like the way you move

Wake Up Mr!

its not easy being heart-broken..
went thru that.. most of d ones ard me hev been thru it as well..
dis one’s about someone else.. he just cant let go..

it is sure sad, when u cant let go..
some ppl ard u may say she wasn gud enuf fo u..
deep down u knew dat there’s some truth in that..
bt u jus dunt want 2 relive those painful moments..
u just dunt wanna go there.. u knoe, if u dig those tymes when she wasn true 2u..
u wud hev a reason to hate her.. but u dunt want that..
u try so hard 2c pass her flaws.. even it was done 2u not so long ago..
u wont let go of her.. even if it was clear that she had moved on..
u’d tink, y wud she go 2all d trouble of proving to u dat she’s capable of getting a nu love in her life..

i knoe it’s hard 2let go of someone uve learnt to love..
u tot u n her were a sure thing.. bt ur love ended abruptly..
u didnt see the signs, any sign fo that matter..
now ur caught between reality and fantasy..

u r fully aware of which one is which..
bt u just decide to go with the other..
u knoe dat it’d make u feel better, to go on with ur fantasy..
even when u knoe dat it wud only be short-lived,
followed by the utter devastation of reality crashing down on u..
u stil dunt care.. cuz at least u’d hev a picture of u n her 2gether..happy..

u dunt understand y she did dis 2u..
u came 2d point dat u convinced urself, dat ur not gud enuf..
she needs someone better..

u r better. far more better than the guys she's been eyeing for since day 1

all u gotta do is live life! dunt chain ursev to her demands and needs

when all is clear, ur just one of her options, Mr. Right Now.

One Night's Thought

Recently I have been asked what consists my dream team for football.. I can't give a direct answer.. haha Ive got a lot of players that i just love see play.. To shortlist them is hard.. bt yeah. i spent yday thinkin bout it.. hehe
Well, here's a list of who could be in my dream team :') in no particular order mind u..
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GKeepers
Cech - Chelsea
Jaaskelainen - Bolton
Buffon - Juve
Friedel - AVilla
Given - Newcastle
Green - WestHam
Lehmann - retired
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Defenders
Terry - Chelsea
Laursen - AVilla
Carragher - Liv
Bosingwa - Chelsea
Lescott - Everton
Upson - WestHam
Corluka - Spurs
Cannavaro - Real
Maldini - AC Milan
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Midfielders
Camoranesi - Juve
Lampard - Chelsea
Cesc - Arsenal
Young - AVilla
Bentley - Spurs
Gerrard - Liv
Lennon - Spurs
Elano - MCity
Arteta - Everton
Alonso - Liv
Barry - AVilla
Malbranque - Sunderland
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Forwards
Del Piero - Juve
Sheva - AC Milan
Anelka - Chelsea
Iaquinta - Juve
Agbonlahor - AVilla
Van Persie - Arsenal
Inzaghi - AC Milan
Theirry Henry - Barca
Totti - AS Roma
Benzema - Lyon
Berbatov - ugh,MU
Bent - Spurs
Davies - Bolton
Martins - Newcastle
Johnson - Fulham
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Hohoho.. there u go.. my list of players that i like to see perform. hurm, i'l explain some of the reasons why they are shortlisted :'P (i'l try)

hm, start with lennon, to me, he's a good winger that get points in speed and crossing ability. as for inzaghi, he knoes how to handle the opponents esp defenders :'P Sheva, is my fave scorer, plus penalties, plus gud looks *gaga* cannavaro's defence is usually fierce n i like that, not to mention his interception skills. corluka is a rather new addition to my watchlist, just because he can be challenged, physically .hihi. camoranesi can sure depend on his dribbling skills and crossing. elano elano, is my one of my fave last season..he's so upbeat and on-form.. he can dribble, score frm far n his free kicks are always noticed and really anticipate passes to create opportunity. iaquinta, power shots la. del piero n maldini, legend. young has great pace, his creative and aspiring midfielder who create threats against the opponents. gerrard , yes he is creative, great control of the ball and unlike most players, he's not greedy or too eager to score sampai tak bagi can kat player lain. tihihi. lampard! plays both major roles, defense n attack, notable stamina, basically an all rounder. john terry, a powerful defense, his absence would be truly felt by his fellow teamates. He knoes how to read the game and clear the ball frm danger zone~ :'D n he sure can score too!! carragher has the ability to cross upfield and good stamina, he anticipate attack quite well jg. Bent , i started to look at when he's in charlton.. he scored in almost every game.. he really knoes how to..score hah! agbonlahor pun, jus started noticing him recently, really like the way he plays and make it happen..but his 3mth goal-drought was bo-ring. ;'P

so many more to comment on~ heh i'l post this first, then i'l edit again later~
hehe had so much fun thinking bout this! :'D bt hey! im a girl! dunt expect me to be a gud football reviewer :'(
xo

Ugh!! I Loike!

i hev got a new obsession, with one celeb. im goin gaga over gahan!!

shiiiiiit~ haha i watched one of the fan vids with his pix n vids performing and stuff, i literally drooled! HAHA! that was so NOT PLANNED! tihihi

bt yeah, i tink ppl wud tink im weird, admiring him .. whu cares.. ;')

n his voice gets me evrytyme like how dat phrase frm 'can u forgive her' did.. damn~ n it's no good is the latest can u forgive her!

Gonna take my time


I have all the time in the world



To make you mine



It is written in the stars above



The gods decree


You'll be right here by my side



Right next to me



You can run but you cannot hide







Don't say you want me



Don't say you need me



Don't say you love me


It's understood



Don't say you're happy



Out there without me



I know you can't be



Cos it's no good





I'll be fine



I'll be waiting patiently



Till you see the signs



And come running to my open arms



When will you realize



Do we have to wait till our worlds collide



Open up your eyes



You've got to back the tide







Don't say you want me



Don't say you need me



Don't say you love me



It's understood



Don't say you're happy



Out there without me



I know you can't be



Cos it's no good





Gonna take my time



I have all the time in the world



To make you mine



It is written in the stars above





Don't say you want me



Don't say you need me



Don't say you love me



It's understood



Don't say you're happy



Out there without me



I know you can't be


Cos it's no good

end of november

It seems during the day that I'm a spy reincarnated
Into a very strange love affair between a dream and a man

It's seems during the night that I can't even close my eyes
I gotta tell you about my sweet living nightmare
I fall in love with, every night

Your love is a dragster wave. It makes us breath like two machines
Flower lust, my hurricane, you turn my blood into gasoline

And we sweat, and it's sweet
And we breath like machines
And we play, and we pray 'til we find hidden sins
And we crash, and we burn every moment in turn
every thing we've learned to forget will return
You'll leave on your knees
You'll cry, I'll please
Combustible tears, destructible fears
And we crash and we burn every second in turn
Every thing that we learned to forget will return. Alryt!

And the sun is going over me. Over your sex steam battle face
Over minibars and golgot eyes. Your triple 6 carat ass

patience?

she broke your heart. yes she did.
she took your soul. all in one night.
ur hurt inside. tremendously.
Cuz there's a hole. that really aches for help.
u need some time to be alone. to wear the crown of thoughts.
then u will find what uve always known. which was buried beneath the hollowness.

i'm the one who really love u, baby. please open your eyes.
i've been knockin' at ur door. again and again.

n as long as im living.
i'l be waiting. for you to fall into my arms.
as long as im breathing i will b there with you.
whenever u call me. you dunt need to hesitate.
i'l b waiting. patiently.
whenever u need me. i've always needed u.
i'l b there. for u.

ive seen u cry. sobbing endlessly.
into d night. til the birds chirp.
i feel ur pain. baby, i really do.
can i make it right? for you i'l try.
i realize.
there's no end in sight. sadly.
yet still i wait. in line for this game of patience.
for u to see d light.

u are d only one ive ever known. n believe me it's real.
that makes me feel this way, couldn't on my own.
i wanna b with u until we're old.
u've got d love u need right in front of u, please come home right bak to me.

Le Hurt

Comment faites-vous mandé briser un cœur?
How do u break a mended heart?
Je m'ennuie et que vous voulez quelque chose à faire
I'm bored and want something to do
Je tiens à l'automne, endormez
I wanna fall, fall asleep
Endormi dans les bras, les bras d'une homme
asleep in the arms, the arms of a man
Une homme qui n'aime pas, ne mérite pas mon amour
A man who doesn, doesn deserve my love

Je tiens à mentir, mentir à moi-même
I wanna lie, lie to myself
Moi-même et quelqu'un d'autre
Myself and someone else
Juste à ressentir quelque chose, quelque chose qui me blesse
Just to feel something, something that hurts me
Le mal me fait sentir en vie
The hurt makes me feel alive

Et qu'il ne va empirer à partir de là
And it's only gonna get worse from there
Je peux faire mieux
I can do better
Mais je ne peux pas faire mieux maintenant
But i cant do better now

Tant est terminée
So long is over
Agréable de sauter la chance que vous vous connaître
Nice to skip the chance to get to know u
Pourquoi ai-je pense que cela est vrai?
Why did i think that this was true?
Parce que je voulais
Bcuz i wanted to

Je tiens à l'automne
I wanna fall
Je tiens à genoux
I wanna kneel
Je veux rire, pleurer, dire adieu
I wanna laugh, cry, say goodbye
Mendier, mentir, tricher et voler
Beg, lie, cheat and steal

If you really knoe French, pls do correct me whichever part im wrong.. hehe

Moving Mountains

It's like whatever I say
i just can't get through to you


Now, now she loved me, shawty I love her
Used to jump up in the maybach and roll out.
Used to care, she used to share
The love that she used to give me can't be found.
I lost my way, she said she'd stay
And lately I've been sleeping with a ghost
My stock is down and out, I used to be worth my weight in gold
That was before the great depression kicked in and rocked us
And that was before the hurricane, came in and stopped us.
I told you to leave, but you lied to me
When you said that: "Baby, no worries I promise to get us back..."
I know sorries, just wouldn't do it,
Her Heart is obliterated, I'm trying to travel through
But it's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains...
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change
And the sky turns grey, and the water from the rain, washes progress away
It's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains...Hey
Why you just leave me
Just leave me be

She, she don't touch me I don't touch her
We ain't really even ever say a word
I really wanna give her everything she deserves,
But the bad took away the good
She thinks that I'm full of it
Arguments, always pissed, man I'm tired.
Every kiss, that I missed, girl you know I'm trying.
You never believe when I say, and I never believe it when you say, I love you
And I shouldn't complain about it, I should take it like a man and walk up out it.
'Cause we will never be the same... oh
I've been standing in gas, and you have been the flame

Girl I know sorries, just wouldn't do it,
Her Heart is obliterated, I'm trying to get through
Gotta move this mountain...
It's like moving mountains...
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change
And the sky turns grey, and the water from the rain, washes progress away
It's like moving mountains...
Well baby why you just leave me
Just leave me be
Just leave me

this must be a slow death that im traveling on it feels so wrong im barely holding on see no matter what it takes i've gotta get it together and these hills that im traveling on she ain't showing me love im down of my love...

A Beautiful Mess

You’ve got the best of both worlds

You’re the kind of girl who can take down a man,

And lift him back up again

You are strong but you’re needy,

Humble but you’re greedy

Based on your body language,

your shouted cursive I’ve been reading

You’re style is quite selective,

though your mind is rather reckless

Well I guess it just suggests

that this is just what happiness is



Hey, what a beautiful mess this is

It’s like picking up trash in dresses



Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write

Kind of turn themselves into knives

And don't mind my nerve you can call it fiction

‘Cause I like being submerged in your contradictions dear

‘Cause here we are, here we are



Although you were biased I love your advice

Your comebacks they’re quick

And probably have to do with your insecurities

There’s no shame in being crazy,

Depending on how you take these

Words that paraphrasing this relationship we’re staging



And it’s a beautiful mess, yes it is

It’s like, we are picking up trash in dresses



Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say

Kind of turn themselves into blades

And the kind and courteous is a life I’ve heard

But it’s nice to say that we played in the dirt

Cause here, here we are, Here we are



We're still here



And what a beautiful mess this is

It’s like taking a guess when the only answer is yes



And through timeless words in priceless pictures

We’ll fly like birds not of this earth

And tides they turn and hearts disfigure

But that’s no concern when we’re wounded together

And we tore our dresses and stained our shirts

But it’s nice today, oh the wait was so worth it  

Can You Forgive Her?

Another night with open eyes
Too late to sleep, too soon to rise
You're short of breath, is it a heart attack?
Hot and feverish you face the fact

You're in love, and it feels like shame
Because she's gone and made a fool of you in public again
You're in love, and it feels like pain
Because you know there's too much truth in everything she claims

So ask yourself now: Can you forgive her
If she wants you to?
Ask yourself: Can you even deliver
What she demands of you?

You drift into the strangest dreams
Of youthful follies and changing teams
Admit you're wrong, oh, no, not yet
Then you wake up and remember that you can't forget

She's made you some kind of laughing stock
Because you dance to disco, and you don't like rock
She'd make fun of you, and even in bed
Said she was gonna go and get herself a real man instead

Remember when you were more easily led
Behind the cricket pavilion and the bicycle shed
Trembling as your dreams came true
You looked right into those blue eyes and knew

It was love, and now you can't pretend
You've forgotten all the promises of that first friend
It's bad enough, she knows how you feel
But she's not prepared to share you with the memory

Flushed with Greens

Yay! I've got meself some free plants! Which is gud.. as it fits well in my "budget-garden" theme :'P

Hehe the plants were stolen from a well-known nursery in Bangi..... :'P kidding! haha

Occay, I'm working with this coy name Mujo Sdn Bhd. which makes customised sofas and chairs, upholstery services, and also re-upholstery services! (a bit of ad :') there) So, the boys at the manufacturing place plants all sort of greens and mostly orchids.. which were a beaut!

And so.... here's what i got from them!

I love them!! Arck! :'P

Here's 4 plants that i sangkut on the sliding door grills. If you're thinking, "hey, there's only 3 plants here!" Look again closer. :'P There's a small version of the middle plant under it.. HiHi!! it's planted in a seashell! How creative right?? :'P

Now this is just BEAUTIFUL!

Here's the japanese rose patch.. grass is greener~ all is gud!

Bird's-eye-view of the front lawn collection :'P

The two pudding plants on the sides were bought at a bargain! At the 1st nursery, the slightly bigger version (extra two branches) costs RM18.. So i tot, "Pfffft,., im not gonna waste 18bucks for that beautiful and sturdy-looking plant!" :'P haha and then came a day... another nursery had the same beautiful and sturdy-looking plant (smaller version, only one branch) at a whopping RM5!! agagag.. well thats what the indo-guy who works there told me.. then when i went to pay at another man, who i tink is the boss, as he sits behind a desk with a fan...... and he sed "two puddings huh? thats RM3 ea" ....................................................... yes, i was speechless for a gud 2 seconds! HAHA yay for me! :'D

So that's my update for today!

Later!

Updated Garden

Well, its a lawn actually.. :'P

So here's what I've done..

All those annoying and filthy lalangs are gone! yay1 twas really frustrating when the lalang s and weeds keep growing back, so i went to the nearest hardware store, and bought a Class III poison specially made for lalangs.. I sprayed evryday for 4 days.. HAHA! Surely enuf, they died, along with 3 of my plant with purple leaves which were planted in the same ground........ downnnn

Gud thing, twas RM2 ea.. so still bearable. :'P I try and keep my garden in a tight budget u see..

Exhibit A

As u can see, in Exhibit A, the pebbles were...kidnapped frm my mom's hse :'P those were the ones that i managed to seludup haha..

Exhibit B

Here, a close-up from Exhibit A.. I bought 2 pots of Japanese Rose (RM2 ea) and cut their stem and chuck em in the soil inside the pebbled frame.. My idea is to cover the whole ground, around the steping stone with the Japanese Rose.. :'P bt since im on a budget...... i'll do a corner at a tyme.. and wait for new stems from the two pots to grow.. hey, i'm in no hurry what.. :'P tihihi

Exhibit C

And in Exhibit C, thats my most expensive bowl of plants.. hihi RM28.. haha hey that is expensive when im using me own pocket money! :'P that was after a hard-to-get discount of RM2, from a ever-so-stingy nursery near my hse.. ;')

And OF COURSE, there was.............................. this lil guy.

My ever-so-helpful nephew, Daniel.. :')

So, I will keep updating my garden! As much as i will keep on missing my sayangku.. :'D
Oh! I also bought eggplant seeds!! :'P I saw em in a DIY store in OU, and i remembered my sayangku, so i bought em.. aish! mish him so much la..

I always cook eggplant for him.. Terung Sambal, just plain ol grill.. and i even tried making the famous Ratatouille! :'D and twas great!

So yeah, i'm planting eggplants as well! We'll see how it goes!

Later!

Childhood Cookies

Raining everyday.. making me bored everyday.. So yeah, i made a batch of rather traditional cookies.. it has a funny name :'P based on what it looks like.. tihihi Sarang Semut .. english translation, Ant's Hill.. rite.... :'P When i was younger, me and my bestie loved these cookies, and njoy making them too! Oh, those were the days! So here's what happened;

185g margarine
125g icing sugar
185g plain flour (a)
125g custard powder (a)
1/2 tsp baking powder (a)
1/2 tbsp vanilla essence
sufficient choc rice
small/tiny papercups!

1. Beat the sugar and margerine together until fluffy. Then, add the (a) ingredients and mix well.


2. Add the vanilla essence.


3. To make sure the mixture is ready, the dough wont stick to the bowl.


4. When ready, grate the dough using a cheese grater. Then scoop them into the tiny cups.


5. Sprinkle as much ants that you desire! :'P


6. Bake at 150c for 10mins or so.

Result; Scrumptious!! So light and creamy.. they hev the melt in the mouth feeling to them!

Gardening!

Hey hey! I miss sayangku.. Back in Perth, he likes to do gardening. He plants roses, red, white and yellow. They were beautiful. Unfortunately, I dunt hev any pictures of his garden. He plants lavender bushes on the side of his porch. Beautiful violets. We would always go to Bunnings together and find plants and mulch. In one trip, i chose one plant, im not sure what its called, but i'l try and get a pic of it on the net. So we bought that plant and i asked him to plant it in his garden and take care of it. I called it, our Bunga Cinta. tihihi.

Bunga Cinta

I said, sayang, this pokok symbolizes our love tau! So he planted it in his garden. Two weeks later, the plant died.... rite... Our Bunga Cinta died! in less than a month. Wth.. haha. So yeah, no hard feelings. :'P


So yeah, because I miss him so much. I started gardening. DUM DUM DUM! tihihi. So.... I went to one of my family's property that wasn being taken care too gud.. :'P here, lemme show u some pixies.. Cautious; the weeds might strangle u!

Exhibit AExhibit B

Yes.. Starting gardening with this small lawn was a nightmare. But yeah, me and my maid did a lot cleaning and cutting. Those weeds aka lalang were sharp, i got a few weed-cuts.. :'P sheesh, i tot only papers giv u dat.. so yeah, i'll post the updated, cleaner lawn with flowers later.

Later!

Peanut Butterscotch Cake

Aish, sorry for the low quality pic. I made this cake out of boredom. tihihi. The taste was nice, but a little too sweet. So just reduce the sugar amount nex tyme i guess. Recipe is..;

Topping:
125g butter
2 tbsp brown sugar
2 tbsp white sugar
2 tbsp honey
1 1/2 cups of finely chopped peanuts

Cake:
1 2/3 cups plain flour
1/2 tsp salt
3 tsp baking powder
125g butter
1/2 cup sugar
2 eggs, beaten
1/4 cup milk
1/2 tsp vanilla extract

- Lightly grease 23cm square tin and line base with non-stick baking paper
Topping
- Melt butter, sugars and honey in saucepan. Stir in peanuts pour mixture in tin.

- Preheat oven 190 C
Cake;
- Sift flour, salt and baking powder. Rub in butter, add sugar and mix. Pour eggs, milk and vanilla extract in center. Mix well.
- Pour cake mixture on top of nut mixture. Bake for 40mins, then reduce heat to 180 C and bake for 20mins more. Turn out immediately onto rack and remove paper.
- Replace any nut topping that comes away, it will set as soon as it cools.

But in my version, I didn want to have a plain cake, so i add a bit of choc rice for a bit of color. :'D
Yay!

Me First Try in Choc Tart

Tihihi! Here's my first try in making Choc Tart.. omg, the cups, a bit of hassle la in making them. cuz i tink i didn put enuf flour.. so twas a bit hard in shaping them in a "bowl" shape cuz twas so sticky.. haha gud thing the choc topping really covered the imperfections of the cups. hihi.
pardon my bakery language, i am not a frequent baker. :'P

But the taste was... Delish!! hahah Passed! one thing to tick of my list :')

Chocolate Butterscotch Tartlets

Tart Base; Courtesy of anothercupofsugar.blogspot.com

140g flour
1/8tsp salt
55g caster sugar
115g butter - cold
1 egg yolk
1-2tbsp ice cold water

1. Combine flour, salt, and sugar in a medium bowl.


2. Cut the butter into small chunks and add to the flour mixture.


3. Using a dough blade, blend the butter into the flour mixture until it has the consistency of a damp sand with a few pea sized pieces remaining.
   


4. Using a fork, beat the egg yolk with the cold water.


5. Slowly pour the egg mixture over the flour, stirring until mixture become moistened. The dough should stick together and able to hold the form of a ball.


6. Cover the ball with plastic wrap.


7. Smooth the ball of dough with a rolling pin to form a flat disc, chill in the fridge for minimum of 1/2 an hour. Pre heat the oven 180c.
   


8. After that, take the disc out from the fridge, then cut into small circles, i used a tiny glass. Then fit it into a pastry/pie cups (wateva u call it..) mine was the metal ones.
   


9. Blind bake until crust is golden brown @ 180c

Filling; Courtesy of .. me :'D

1/4 cup brown sugar
20g butter
1/2 cup cream
150g dark eating choc (chopped)
Roasted hazelnuts to sprinkle
Cocoa powder to sprinkle

1. Combine brown sugar, butter and 1/4 cream in saucepan. Bring to boil, cook 2 mins.


2. Add chopped dark eating choc and the rest of the cream, stir til choc melts, refrigerate 10mins.


3. Spoon into 12 baked tartlet bases made earlier. Sprinkle roasted hazelnuts and cocoa powder.

Njoy!

the first

Hey its Wednesday morning, and morning as in 12.25am. Well i'm too bored to sleep yet. My bedtyme these days is getting earlier and earlier. Back when i was still studying, *hoh* i must be sick to sleep at 12am. Usual bedtyme would be 3 onwards. Those were the days.

I miss those days. Back here, freedom's limited. For a good reason. I dunt really mind, just that the memory of freedom always linger in my mind. Tihihi. Wait, what's the definition for "dunt really mind" again? Haha.

I started this blog mainly cuz I saw how much fun my sister had updating hers. So, yeah, here i am, trying. I reckon this "blog" thingy is good for me to keep myself updated with the stuff that i plan to do and/or done. It is a good reminder, i guess. Haha. Let us see, how far and often i will update this blog of mine.

So later.